Angie

I’m in a weird place.

For a couple of weeks now I’ve had this feeling of just being empty and numb. I don’t know why I’m feeling that way or how to change it. It’s not that I’m depressed or anything like that, its more like a feeling of my life being a never ending routine, a circle. And like all the things I do lead to absolutely nothing.

It’ll pass, but for now it sucks.

No matter how much I try to, I can’t fully move on because I always wonder if there could still be something with him. It’s my cardinal rule when it comes to past boyfriends—it ended for a reason, Angie…it will never happen again with that person.

But what if it could/would/does happen again? Would that be so bad?

That’s my problem right now.

I just gotta let it go. It’s just hard to. Because of that ‘what if’ hanging over my head.